Time

I think this is one of the biggest struggles of humankind. Time. We never have enough, or we are bored, with too much time. I myself would like about 6 more hours to the day. Lol. But would I really make use of those 6 hours? Probably not. What really matters is what we do with the time we are given. Each one of us is born with a set number of hours to our life. And we will never know that number. Only God knows. There are so many things nowadays to fill that time. Work, cleaning, multiple hobbies, kids, food, the list goes on. Some things that fill our days are good things. Some are not. It's those bad things we do that fill our time that we should really be looking at. In my opinion, those things usually are not that bad. Smart phones, gaming, and technology in general specifically. Those things are all pretty good things. I love Facebook and social media. I like to unwind sometimes with a stupid game. My kids do too. HOWEVER, it is the sheer amount of time that we devote to these things that eventually makes them bad. We should not spend hours at a time on social media. We should not waste our entire time playing stupid games. Our children should not spend hours at a time in front of a device. It's easy to do. Too easy. I know this. I am way too guilty of this. I treasure my evenings when all is quiet in the house. Sometimes, I make good use of that time. I love to read and bake during that time and it is so therapeutic. Most of the time though, I plop myself down on the couch and waste my evening watching tv and playing on my phone. I never feel better after that. Sometimes, there is nothing better than spending an evening doing nothing but relaxing in front of the tv, but daily? No it doesn't feel relaxing after a while and I never feel better about myself or the time I have used. What happened to devotional times? Workout times? Time spent in prayer and worship and reflection? I am severely lacking in all departments. My Bible rarely gets opened and time spent with God? Almost non-existent.

That needs to change. I know from experience that when I spend time with my Savior, things fall into place. My priorities seem clearer and easier to follow through on. It isn't a perfect fix by all means, but when I remember to focus my life on Him, everything else fits better.

For now, I am practically forcing myself into devotions and workout times. I have chosen to do it first thing in the morning so that I don't put it off. It's hard to get out of bed earlier than I would like, but I know it is necessary and I would eventually like for it to become habit so its not so much of a forced thing. (I may ALWAYS have to force myself to work out) I have noticed in the couple days I have done this though, I am more intentional with my day and my time. I focus on my temper a bit more so that I am not always losing it. I want my kids to see a mom that is healthy. Spiritually, physically, and emotionally.